This House

This House

By Kazz Falcon

 

This house I lived in

It was beautiful at first

Lots of love was there

It was comfortable and pleasant

Sunshine was in every room

Even where the sun couldn’t reach

I was at peace

I had no problems

It was home sweet home

I could live here forever

Now, the house was dark and gloomy

I was concerned about my roomie

Something wasn’t right

There was a large shadow over him

I didn’t felt safe at all

I pestered him till he talk

He confessed he lost his job few months ago

He mentioned he had no other choice

I was confused about the last comment

He admitted the boss fired him

I wondered why

He wouldn’t tell me why

Next few weeks, I noticed lots of people was showing up

Some of them came during the middle of the night

I realized drugs entered our home

My roomie decided to make fast money

He sold drugs at the house

I wasn’t happy about it

This wasn’t a home any more

It was home hell home

He ruined the sunshine in this house

True Calling

True Calling

By Kazz Falcon

 

I was a small kid

I had a great desire to be a big star

Any kind of a star was fine by me

I loved to sing

I loved to act

I loved to be a performer

Everyone loves me

I loved the applauses from everyone

It made me to feel fabulous inside

As I got older, I lost interest in the biz

I lived that Hollywood life all my youth

It wasn’t that exciting any more

I was so jaded by it

Performing wasn’t in my heart any more

It wasn’t fulfilling to me

I wanted a normal life

I was pulled in another different direction

I found something else I love to do

The art gallery fascinated me

I saw so many paintings

I loved the beauty of them

I can do marvelous paintings

It was something different from acting

Where in acting, it was someone else’s world

I lived in their world of pictures

The paintings were my very own pictures

I created a brand new world for me

I saw life through something magical

The paintings made me alive again

I found my true calling

Controversial Poet

Controversial Poet

By Kazz Falcon

 

My poems brought out the anger in some people

They hated the poems very much

They really despised me a lot

They wanted to scratch my eyes out

They believed I could do such a thing

Murder, drugging, rape, prostitute, and other awful things

I wasn’t that kind of a person

I was a sweet, friendly, nice, loving, peaceful person

I wasn’t a sick person like some people claimed

They wondered if I had any morals

Yes, I had good morals I lived by every day

Writing about something does not mean I did it

Nor I had the desire to do those awful things

I don’t go out and kill people

I had no reason to

Ilet bygones by bygones

They were hostile toward me

I had to expect that

But I won’t back down from them

They way I see it, they don’t like the world we lived in

Death, gangs, murder, war and etc

Therefore, they lashed out at me

Not all poems they will love

That was fine by me

I was portraying REAL LIFE in my poems

They don’t like what they see in the world

Who doesn’t?

There were bad things in the media, movies, TV and real life

Some people praised TV shows and movies for being REAL

Yet, they criticized me for being too real

It wasn’t fair to me at all

I felt like I was Jesus Christ

They crucified me on the cross

Jesus represents the truth, just like me

My truth was the reality we lived in

They can’t complain about my poems

Now, you know what I was really about

I wasn't ashamed of my poems

I had no reason to feel guilty about

I said my peace

I was a somewhat controversial poet

 

Husband’s Death

Husband’s Death
By Kazz Falcon

I never ever expect this
My husband was killed in a car accident
He was driving drunk like always
I was expecting him to come out ALIVE
He always managed to stay away from death
He kept on daring death with drunk driving
We were coming home from a restaurant
We celebrated our 20th anniversary
He hit a ditch in the road
He lose grip of the wheel
He crashed into a moving car
I was hardly injured
It still hurt that he was taken away from me
It wasn’t impossible
It don’t supposed to happen that way
He didn’t had a death wish
He always make it out alive
Not this time, he died on the way to the hospital
I can’t believed it
He supposed to be home with me
I cried out loud
Why, God, why?
Please don’t take him away
I can’t survive without him
He was my rock
What went wrong?

All the years, I turned the blind eye

I didn’t want to face his drinking problem

It was my partly fault

I didn’t confront him about his drinking

I knew death was on his doorstep

Yet, it was the farthest thing from my mind

So was the husband's death

Blind Eye

Blind Eye

By Kazz Falcon

 

I was deeply in love with my husband

Nothing could tear us apart

We were happy with each other

Our love was pure and heartfelt

We continued to overcome our problems

My husband was in another car accident

He was in so many accidents that I lost count

It was about the same old crap

He drove drunk and crashed into something

I was so used to it by now

I don’t worry about him that much

He always brushed it off

Nothing bad will ever happen

Yes, he broke an arm and a leg a few times

We was set in our own ways

It was a daily routine for us

I will always be there for him

I don’t want to leave him

I knew it my heart

He won’t leave any time

No matter how many times he was in an accident

He was like a pussy

He has nine lives

I was so grateful

Nothing will keep him down

The accidents made our love stronger

I turned the blind eye like nothing happen

Darkness

Darkness

By Kazz Falcon

 

I looked around

It was impossible to see anything

I can’t even see my own face in the mirror

Everything was pitch black

The storm knocked down the power lines

I didn't had any candles at the cabin

I forgot to buy some at the store

I can’t go far

I will stumble and fall down

It was best to stay where I was

I stayed in bed for the rest of the night

I can’t be scare

There wasn’t a sound

Not even a mouse

It was only the darkness and me

No one else was around

I was miles away from civilization

It was scary to be alone

All hope was lost

I might as well fall asleep

Then I won’t be that scare

The sleep was my security blanket

In the morning, I won’t see darkness

9/25/04 Saturday

I had a fagulous day. I was quite please with everything. The sun was shinning, the buses were cool, everything was marvelous. I left my place after 9 AM. I waited in the hot sun for a while. 304 took me to the post office. I got some mail - Nintendo Power and Entertainment Weekly. Then, I caught 304 to Fairfax. Then I went to Barnes & Noble at the Grove.

I went straight to the chairs. I noticed there was some change on a chair. So much, I wanted to steal it, but I didn't. I could have sat down in that chair. Instead, I got a book. I put the book in my chair. The money was still there. I went back to get more books. Then, I went to my seat again. No one claimed it yet. I was tempted to get the money. I started to read San Fransico Then & Now. The lady next to me got up from her chair. She noticed the money. She asked if it was mine. I said, "No!" I noticed she had a name tag in her hand. Dear Lord! She worked there! It will be so funny that she caught me red handed stealing the money from the seat! OOPS!

Few people came and went from the chairs. I saw a black guy sat down and put some books on the table. Hmm, I was intrigue by the books! They were Buddha books! I wanted to grab one from the table to read. I read London Then & Now, then I read a TV book. The black guy finally left with the books on the table. Of course, I grabbed those books. I read them. It was very interesting to read. I learn more about Budda! So badly, I wanted to buy those books. There were easy to know. I think the next time I will buy them.

There was some web links on the back of the book. I wrote some down on the paper. I will look at those sites. I was at the book store about three hours. I took a walk around the mall. I called Mike at the waterfall pond. He mentioned he will come over tomorrow. He was taking a break from the book. He will start all over. We hung up. I walked in the shade. I finally called Robert. I wanted to get some movies for the weekend. Sean answered the phone instead. He was meaning to call me; he was busy. He couldn't take me yet; he need to go to Barstow to work on his friend's house. We will go after he gets back. I heard Robert yelled, "Hi, Kazz." in the background. I didn't have a chance to talk to him; the phone call was short.

I walked to the bus stop. Damn, it was too hot. I was already sweating. I stood behind the pole. I didn't want to melt. Really, it will put me in the hospital. The dash bus picked me up. Oh well, it was the wrong bus. I didn't want to wait in the sun that long. We turned on La Cingena from Melrose. I saw another Dash bus. I wanted to get off the bus at Melrose. I wasn't sure what bus it was. I realized I saw another dash bus on Melrose going the other way. It was too late to get off. I was thinking of taking that bus to Hollywood/Highland. 

The bus dropped me off at Beverly Center. I thought the Rapid bus was running. I checked the bus sign. Man, it only runs on the weekdays! I was out of luck. I stood behind the pole again. It was hot, hot, HOT! A while later, the dash bus came. It was the same one I got off. He was heading back to Fairfax. Far away, the 105 was coming. I checked my phone. Oops, I missed Mike's call. I called him back. I caught 105. He told me the good news. He is getting a pussy! I mentioned I wanted one too. He explained the women will put the pussies on the floor, if the pussy goes to him, he can have the same one. He prefer to go alone. He can't wait for his pussy. I got off 105. Bus 4 was already at the light. I jumped on bus 4. He was so happy to get a pussy. Mike mentioned he needs to buy food and litter! We hung up the phone.

I realized this wasn't 304. I hate taking bus 4. 304 was my favourite. this time, I didn't mind bus 4. It cool me off from the damn heat.  Thank God! I wasn't in a rush to go home; I want to enjoy this beautiful day more. I arrived at the bus stop. I got home at 4 PM. I listened to the radio. I was hungry. I ate two peanut butter sandwich. I served the web a bit. I looked up the Buddha web sites. I sent them some emails.

"Good evening. I am interest of learning Buddhist and such. I want to learn for the longest time. I haven't find the right place to get information."

Hopefully, they will respond to me this week. I want to LEARN NOW! I was ready for it. It was something I wanted to do.

That was my fun filled day! I may watch tv in a little while or listen to more radio; Disco Night was on KBIG! It was Saturday night!  I may turn to bed early. I may go to church in the morning. Laters, guys.

Teacher’s Forbidden Love

Teacher’s Forbidden Love

By Kazz Falcon

Dedicated to Mary Kay Letourneau 

 

My marriage was falling apart

I felt emotional overwhelmed

Teaching was a bright spot

I was at the right place

I had a difficult time dealing with the marriage

I became emotional involved with a student

We spent more time alone in the class

I helped develop his gift for art

He has a unique gift in art

A question changed everything for me

It has never cross my mind

He asked, “Will you ever had a affair?”

I didn’t know what to think

I was speechless and stunned

I resisted his flirtations

I realized some students had crushes on their teachers

The 13 year old student’s feelings was different

He couldn’t live without me when he gets old

His feelings was truly heartfelt

My resistance faded away

We shared our first kiss

We felt there was nothing wrong

It won’t go any further than the kiss

I admitted I had a very deep love for him

Not long after the first kiss, we had sex

I didn’t felt guilty having sex with him

Something dawned on me

The trouble marriage drawn me to the young affair

My husband and I wasn’t sleeping in the same bed

I continued to have an affair with forbidden love

Spiritalien....

Spiritalien....
09/03/04 09:38pm...........This was from Lynndal1.

His soul is hurting inside
where we can't see

From the outside he looks like
you and me

He has turned his pain into
revenge
taking everyone down with him
till the end

When you see him coming
you better think twice
he is after your soul
and your life

09/03/04 09:59pm......from Lynn

Hello Spirit,i have to say this to you i wish you had family around you that love and care about you,then maybe just maybe you would take back your dignity and pride in yourself love lynn.

09/04/04 02:22am............from me

that was a beautiful poem. keep up the good work

"Hello Spirit,i have to say this to you i wish you had family around you that love and care about you,then maybe just maybe you would take back your dignity and pride in yourself love lynn."

the family is dead.

i am MUCH BETTER without them in my life

09/04/04 03:56am.........from Lynn

The family is dead Spirit and so are you inside all you have left is the angry to feed off of.And if your still to this day going out and doing what you say you are doing then god help your poor soul and your mixed up mind.

 

09/05/04 10:58am........from me

"The family is dead Spirit and so are you inside all you have left is the angry to feed off of.And if your still to this day going out and doing what you say you are doing then god help your poor soul and your mixed up mind."

u are SADLY MISTAKEN!

 

Dedicated to Lynndal1

I dedicated The Accused to Lynndal1.

Few weeks ago, I put Mickey Finn in the excite forums. Lynn really believed I drugged and raped people.

She was really pist off. She let me have it big time! Also, she believed I spread HIV to others.

HIV Revenge: "NO YOU didn't deserve what has happened to you nor does the poor damn person you give it to." - Lynn

NOTE: Writing about something DOESN'T mean I did it!

It was only my art! I was a talented artist!

I must give her credit; Lynn wasn't the only one. There were others.

 

This is Lynn's response to The Accused....

I already said i was sorry to you what does it take f@cking blood i am staying away from here so don't worry you won't have to put up with me anymore.Keep on writing write what ever the f@ck you want you are an artist with your own style nobody has the right to stop you.Now goodbye and don't send me anymore posts i won't be back here have a good life have a sh@ty life have any kind of f@cking life you want just have a life

Now, this was my response to Lynn.....

You don't have to leave. It won't be the same without you. Lots of people will miss u.  I said my peace.

In closing, I was defending myself in The Accused!

 

The Accused

The Accused

By Kazz Falcon

 

Everyone knows I am an artist

I posted my art in some forums

It was a good way to be recognized

Who knows?

Maybe, an agent can get in contact with me

I could get a book deal

I wasn’t in any rush at all

Sometimes, I ran into some trouble

Some people took my art serious

They accused me of drugging people

They accused me of raping people

They accused me of spreading HIV

They accused me of putting a baby in the dumpster

They accused me about anything

Damn!

Where do they have the nerves?

They hardly know me

They have no right to judge me

I wasn’t hurting anyone with my art

Yet, they felt like I was doing the dirty deed

I was guilty in their eyes

They didn’t care I was innocence or not

They really believed I was one sick individual

One of these days, they will go too damn far

Perhaps, the police may arrest me for my art

They were hostile with me too

I could end up in the hospital or DEAD!

Man, I didn’t do anything wrong

They must stop assuming the worst things in me

I wasn't a bad guy at all

It was ONLY ART

I was the accused

 

9/23/04 Thursday

I went to the post office early in the morning. I had no mail at all. I figured  I will have some. Last Saturday, I had lots of mail. I may start going twice a week. I think Wednesdays after computer class and my usual day, Saturday. I thought about going somewhere else like the book store. I changed my mind. I didn't ate any breakfest. I decided to get peanut butter at Smart & Final. I ran out last week. I took 304 Western/Santa Monica, then the bus to Smart & Final.

I got my things and walked to the bus stop. Few minutes later, 156 and 4 arrived. Lots of people caught bus 4. I ook 156 instead. Bus 4 passed up bus 156! YEAH! I won't have to wait for the bus for a long time. 156 dropped me off at Vermount/Santa Monica. Soon, I caught bus 4 home. Man, the bus was still crowed. I stood in front of the bus. My stop was coming up. I moved back to the bus. I got off the bus and went home.

Oh yeah, Karina held a workshop about resume. She came to my place and got me. I didn't want to go till Passions was over! Pilar was anxious to see her long lost daughter, Paloma. Sheridan looked for her, but she was with Alistair. Alistair was up to her old tricks. He mentioned that the family doesn't care for her. That's why Pilar sent her away to Mexico when she was a baby.

I went to the work shop. There was donuts and three of us, besides Karina. They mostly talked about the kitchen. This guy want to work in the kitchen and wanted to learn; he was a waiter long time ago. One cooking school cost $35,000. No thanx. It was too expensive. Besides, cooking is not my thing. I much preferred to work in the office. Ronald brought up the class at Path; he really like the class. We had a nice time at the workshop.

Karina mentioned she wanted to do an newsletter for the apartments. Stories, poems, pictures will be in it. The first newsletter meeting will be on Oct 6 at 1:30 PM. I will be there; it was something I was interest in. Karina dismissed the workshop. I took some donuts with me. I ate some at my desk. I emailed her some poems; she will choose some.

The rest of the day was average.............

“Amnesia” Roman Brady

“Amnesia” Roman Brady

By Kazz Falcon

 

I stumbled into Salem in 1986

Yet, I was still lost

I can’t remember who I was

I don’t recognize the area

I was wrapped up in bandages

I came across Dr. Marlena Evans

She helped me to unravel my past

She feared I was her worst enemy – Stephano

I had a phoenix tattoo on my shoulder

I slowly recovered my memory

She noticed certain familiar patterns

It dawned on her

Was I her long lost husband?

She found out I had plastic surgery

She saw pictures of Roman at the surgeon’s office

She was convinced I was her long lost husband

She believed Stephano brainwashed and redesigned me

She told me about the pictures

I couldn’t believed it

I “changed” my looks

I felt like I was home again

I was reunited with the woman I love

I was reunited with our kids

I accepted my place in her heart and home

I was happy to have my life back

hi i luv u

9/18/04 Saturday

I woke up after 8 AM. I ate breakfast. I was online to check the emails and posts. I got a email noticed about an reply in a forum. I checked out it. I was shocked beyond belief. The stupid guy wants to BLACKLIST me from the forum. Everhope don't like my beliefs in God. I didn't do anything wrong at all. He has some nerves!

"I do not condemn you." - Everhope

 He is a DAMN hypocrite for judging me!

"It is likely you will soon be removed from this forum." - Everhope 

Everhope threatened to BAN me from the forum.

OKAY! I am done with the low life!

It was nice out this morning. It was cool and the sun wasn't out. I walked to 304 bus stop. I waited about 10 minutes. 2 and 4 Bus came. I was tempted to take 4, but I wanted to take 304. I caught the bus to the post office. Damn, I had lots of mail! two issue of Entertainment Weekly and SOD. Tony DiMera was on the new cover. It was a good read. Tony was the mastermind of the island and Marlena being a serial killer. I didn't read all of it. I waited for the bus. I read it on the bus thou. Tony wanted to give them the same hurt he recieved all those years ago. PAYBACK IS HELL!

I decided to go to The Grove. It was such a lovely day. I didn't want to go home. Last week, I mentioned I was tired of staying home all the time. This time, I was true to my word. I waited for the bus on Fairfax. The bus dropped me off at 3rd and fairfax. I walked through Farmer's Market to Barnes & Noble at the Grove. It was very nice. Lots of people out at the mall. Everyone was enjoying the warm weather. I went to the third floor and read a book. I was there for a few hours. Mike called me with some bad news. They won't publish his astrology book; they didn't understand the language. It was a big let down for him. He was looking forward to it. Someone else will publish his book. I took a walk around the Grove.

I headed to the bus stop. The bus just left. I caught the next bus a minute later. I got off at Sunset/Vermount. I waited for a while. I took the bus home. I saw Ken across the street. We waved at each other. I continue reading SOD. I looked back. Ken was going home with this black guy. Hmmm, a trick! You go, Ken! I opened the gate. I left the gate unlocked for Ken.  I opened my door and put down my stuff. I looked at the time, 3:35 PM. Ken and him walked up the steps. I was hungry. I ate two burentos. I had some tang. I went online for a while. There was nothing on TV. I saw the black guy walked pass by door at 5:25 PM. He was on his way home. Well, Ken and him had some FUN!

to be continued.....

hi i luv u

Macaulay Culkin

  Macaulay Culkin was arrested by the Oklahoma City police for drug possession on Friday, September 17.

 

hi, i love u

Tracy Gold

Sep 14, 9:41 PM (ET)

MOORPARK, Calif. (AP) - Former "Growing Pains" actress Tracey Gold was arrested earlier this month after her sport utility vehicle flipped on a highway, injuring her husband and two of their three children, police said.

Tracey Gold Marshall, 35, was booked for investigation of felony drunken driving after the Sept. 3 crash, California Highway Patrol officer Steve Reid said Monday.

Marshall wasn't hurt, but her husband, Roby Marshall, 39, suffered neck injuries, the officer said. The couple's 7-year-old son suffered a broken collarbone and a 5-year-old son was cut, but their 4-month-old son wasn't hurt, Reid said.

The Marshalls' home telephone number was unlisted and the actress couldn't be reached for comment.

The SUV, with Marshall at the wheel, veered off the highway just before midnight and it rolled over on its way down an embankment, Reid said.

Officers suspected the actress was under the influence of alcohol and she was booked at the county jail. She posted $50,000 bail the following day and was released. A court date wasn't immediately available, the highway patrol said.

Gold played Carol Seaver during the seven-year run of "Growing Pains," which ended production in 1992.

I was shock by the news. I never thought she will do such a thing. I remembered seeing her on On Air With Ryan Seacrest few months ago. She was friendly and cheerful. She was waiting for her newborn baby. Kirk Cameron suprised her with present. I think they haven't see each other since the growing pains movie.

I learned on Entertainment Tonight that she wasn't charge yet. The police is investigating. Sadly, she ruined her son's life. She will have to live with the guilt for the rest of her life. She could have kill them.

It could have been lots worse. This new poem went further than her.

Irresponsible Parent

By Kazz Falcon

 

My husband drank too much at the restaurant

I didn’t want him to drive

We got in the car

We were on our way home

The young son fell asleep in the back seat

I tried my best to drive

It was pouring down rain

I couldn’t see straight

Sadly, I was all over the road

I accidentally jumped the curb

I ran into a tree

I was shocked

Our son was in lots of pain

I reached out for him

He couldn’t move

I wasn’t able to get to him

I forgot the husband was in the car

No, he wasn’t

He flew through the window

He didn’t had his seatbelt on

I cried for help

I checked his pulse

I killed my husband

Dear Lord! What have I done?

I heard the ambulance coming

The police showed up moments later

I told the police the truth

I was driving drunk in the rain

I thought I was able to drive

Look at the mess I made

My husband was dead

My son was cripple

I felt so ashamed of myself

I had to live with the guilt for the rest of my life

I was theblame

I should have know better

The alcohol clouded my judgment

I was an irresponsible parent

 

9/14/04. Tuesday

Yesterday, I forgot to add an entry for yesterday which I am doing today before tomorrow comes in 35 minutes. Got that?

I got off the bus on Vermount/Beverly. I went to the corner. This guy guy caught my attention. I felt like he wanted me. I wouldn't pay attention to him. I was anxious to get away from him. I want to focus on my life, not sex. When I became successful, then i will start thinking of a new lover. Right now was not the time for a fling or a new lover. He was handsome. It was hard NOT to look at me. He didn't stop looking at me.

I went to class. It was much better. I am getting an hang of the class. It was cold in the room too. I was glad I brought the coat with me. I was learning new things in class like atl + shift D = Date. T is the time. I was excited. It will take me far. I can see myself working at a publisher or some studio. It was a dream. Perhaps, I can get my book published.

I gave the teachers my work. I didn't do that well. I need to do the papers again. There was 30 minutes left. I couldn't redo my work. I did the next best thing; I uploaded the class' school papers on yahoo briefcase. I should have done this two years ago. I bet I would have finish the class. Everything was in the briefcase. I went straight home. I jumped into the work. I did the papers again. It took me a while to figured what I went wrong. The papers look better now. I can print the papers in class, then he will grade them. I will go on to something else.

Today, I mostly did more poems. I was happy with all of them. Here is one...

 

Unhappy Home

By Kazz Falcon

 

I wasn’t happy living at home

My parents fought all the time

They blamed each other for everything

Neither of them shows me any attention

I was sad inside

I was a good kid

I wasn’t getting good grades

I thought it was my fault

I did something wrong

They claimed I was the root of the problem

I tend to believe that

If I was never born, they will be happier

I don’t know why I deserve the abuse

All kids wanted to be love by a parent

I was in a hateful environment

They never ever wanted me at all

I was a mistake they foolish made

I was paying for their mistake

Why me?

I was innocence

I didn’t have a choice to come into this world

I just happened

Presto, I was born 9 months later

They felt like they were forced into marriage

I was the blame for the fighting

That was my unhappy home

Open Window

Open Window

By Kazz Falcon

 

I love sleeping at night with an open window

The cold wind breezes through the house

It felt so comfortable

I always sleep like a baby

One night, I was sound asleep in bed

Someone entered the room

He got in bed with me

He put his hand on my leg

Finally, my husband was home from work

It was dark in the room

I could barely see his face

We begun kissing passionate

I noticed he was a little rough

I mentioned he was hurting me

He didn’t care at all

He wanted me right then and there

I couldn’t stop him

He was too strong for me

I was helpless

I screamed out loud

“Stop it! Stop it! Someone help me,” I yelled

My dear old husband wanted to rape me

He covered up my mouth

I was scared for my life

Out of the blue, someone broke down the door

They got into a fight

He escaped through the window

He turned on the light

I was dumbstruck

Dear Lord! My husband saved me from danger

I had no ideal it was someone else

I was safe once again

He looked around the bedroom

The window screen was missing

Crime invited itself through the open window

 

Is God A Killer?

Is God A Killer?

By Kazz Falcon

 

Some people thought so

He wasn’t a real God

He could never send people to hell

It wasn’t his nature

He was a sweet loving God

God sent his begotten son to earth

Jesus wants to save us from our sins

Isn’t that special?

Jesus was a gift from God

We have a choice

We can either accept him or reject him

Yet, they continued to believe God is a killer

Really, he wasn’t

God wasn’t forcing us to hell

He gave us Jesus Christ

He was allowing us to go

All along, it was our choice

9/12/04 Sunday

Nothing much happened. I thought I was going to the book store today. Instead, I was in the the mood to do some poems. I thought I was going to the book store today. I "worshiped" God in my own way; I did some poems, read the bible and did some research about religion. I learrned there was Another Book, besides Lamb's Book aka Book Of Life. Another Book was a fact book; God knows evertything about everyone. Here is a poem about Another Book.

Another Book

By Kazz Falcon

 

I recently died from a heart attack at age 27

I appeared in front of God

I feared for my life

I was a sinful creature

Yet, I couldn’t escape the hurtful truth

My life was recorded in his fact book

He knew everything about everyone

He knew my every pain, worry, fear and tears I had cried

What have I done?

I was a fool to pass up Jesus Christ

I could have invite him in my life

I rejected his love and saving grace

I was too busy living a sinful life

I was occupy in the world

Sometimes, the world turns a blind eye

I didn’t see the living truth

My fear became a reality

My name wasn’t in the book of life

I was cast into the lake of fire

I was doomed to eternal destruction

I was forever in perdition, thanks to another book

 

 

I did about 10 poems all day long. I was quite please. All the poems was quite good. I am gonna to wait to put them on the web site. Miguel FINALLY called me. He was mostly interest in his ID. Nope, it didn't came. That was it. Miguel didn't talk about the car accidnet last week. I was tempted to ask me. I was kinda upset. I didn't show it. Miguel mentioned he may pick up more clothes. I don't care about him. The sooner he picks up all clothes, the sooner he will be out of my life! Man, I can't wait. I was much better without him in my life.

 

Mike didn't show up or call me. Oh well. it was a good thing. If he came over, I bet I won't do all the poems I did today. That was my funfilled day.

 

9/11/04 Saturday

Nothing big nor exciting happen today, not even an terrorist attack! I woke up about 8:30 AM. I went online for a while. I better get a move on. It was getting hot outside. I got dressed and left after 9. Damn, I missed the 304. I saw it pass by. It will be a while for 304. I was tempted to take the next bus. Nah, I can wait a little longer. Then again, the heat was getting to me. Oh well, I toughed it out! Buses 2 and 4 came right together.

304 finally came. Ahhhh, the bus was cool. I picked up my mail; SOD, Entertainment Weekly and the phone bill. I went to the bus stop, reading SOD. I didn't want to go home. I was tired of going home and doing nothing. The day was still young. From now on, I will stay out all day when I go out. Once again, I went straight home. I didn't eat any breakfast. I didn't feel like eating this morning.

10:50 AM, I got home. Hmm, the bible cartoon was coming on at 11 AM. I haven't watch that show in a while. Instead, I changed my mind. I saw all the episode more than one time. I was tired of watching reruns. I got some meat from the frig. I put it in the sink to thaw. I can cook for Mike; steak and green beans. Last time, Mike didn't show up either. I made him steak and mashed potatos. Few hours later, there was no sign of Mike. He mentioned he will be here at 3 PM. So far, no Mike.

More hours passed, I called Mike. He just got out of the shower and ran to answer my phone. He mentioned he couldn't sleep last night; he was too busy writing. He wasn't coming over. He was at the library all day for research. Oh well, I won't have to cook for him. He may come over tomorrow. He thought I was mad. I was about to put the meat back in the frig. Nah, I still can eat it for supper. I cooked the steak in the boiler. I made some green beans too. The steak was fagulous. It was juicy in every bite.

That was about the day I had. Of course, I did some art too. Here is one....

Secret Code

By Kazz Falcon

 

The secret code saved my life

Last week, I walked home from school

Of course, I was alone

My parents couldn’t pick me up

They were working at that time

I was minding my own business

This one guy drove up beside me

I didn’t pay any attention to him

He kept on trying to get my attention

He mentioned he was lost

I explained an adult can help him

He fed me another line

“Have you seen my lost dog?”

I wouldn’t answer him

He confessed that my parents told him to pick me up

I still didn’t trust him

I know better than that

I asked, “What’s the code?”

He was dumbstruck

He claimed there wasn’t time for the code

He opened up the passenger’s door

I screamed very loud

He saw someone running up

He zoomed off in his car

I explained to the stranger that he was up to no good

He called the police on his cell phone

The police arrived for the statement

I told them the same story

They asked the stranger some questions

Thankfully, he gave them his license plate

The police took me straight home

The police was glad I had a secret code

Baby Moses Law

Baby Moses Law

By Kazz Falcon

 

I thought about leaving my baby in the dumpster

I wasn’t ready to be a mother yet

I was pregnant from a one night stand

It was the biggest mistake of my life

I don’t want to put my life on hold

I was seventeen year old

I dropped out of school

I ran away from home

I was ashamed of the situation

I learned there was a law

Baby Moses Law was the break I needed

I can leave the baby at a hospital, police, fire or EMS station

No one will say a thing; no questions ask

We can leave the baby at those places – day or night

We won’t go to jail either

I heard horror stories about the dumpster babies

I can’t put my child through that

It wasn’t fair to him

No one may not find him at all

I didn’t want to be charge with attempted murder

The dumpster was the wrong thing to do

I got the courage

I dropped the baby off at the police station

I sadly kissed him goodbye

I will never see him ever again

I was glad he was in safe hands

The police will take good care of him

I gave the baby a chance to grow and live

Thank God for Baby Moses Law

Kackle

Kackle
By Kazz Falcon
 
Youthful Queer
He was so much into the clubkids
His idol was Michael Alig
He found his identify early in life
He was gay and a clubkid at heart
He has an close knit of friends
His very own clubkids to party with
He was an natural and an original
People say he's unique
It was a nice way of saying he's a freak
He likes to march to the beat of electronic percussion machine
He wants to see who steals his heart
He's very special
He wasn't shy
He was outgoing and flamboyant
Is he the second coming of Michael Alig?
Don't get in his way
He will party your ass out like Angel
Someday, his true prince will come
They will live happily ever after
In clubland, where the clubkids rules

 

9/10/04 Friday

Today was the worst day of my life. The heat is getting to me very badly. I woke up this morning. I was thisclose of throwing up. I didn't thou! This past week have been too hot. I was thinking about skipping school today. I wasn't feeling it. Damn the heat. I tired to go back to sleep, but couldn't. So, I took an shower to cool me off. Somewhat, the shower was a little better for me.

I went online for a while. Yet, I was feeling bad. The fan was on me till I went to class. I checked the posts and such. I had no breakfast. I know I will threw up from all the heat. I won't go to class early at all. I will arrive late. I will leave between 8 to 8:30 AM. I will still be tired if I leave about 7 AM. I won't last in the computer class.

I arrived about 8:20. I got the stuff and sit in the other room. For an hour or so, I didn't do anything. I didn't want to deal with it. I checked the Tv Guide about the latest soap news and the entertainment news. I felt renewed. I tackled the work. After 11 AM, I was ready for the test again. Last time, I flunked big time; the teacher mentioned I need to do the lesson again! Today, I didn't want to do the lesson again. I wanted to be lazy today.

Anyway, I was feeling good about the test. Of course, I cheated! Shhh. Don't tell the teacher. I made an 80; I missed two on a 10 questions test. Sometimes, we have to heat to get ahead in life.  It's time to leave. I pondered about the post office. I changed my mind and went home; the CBS soaps wasn't on either. I was anxious to see All My Children! Babe was ready to give the baby back to Bianca! It was about time!

Bianca thought her baby died few months ago. Reality, Paul Cramer stole Babe's baby and give Bianca's baby to Babe. Paul's sister needed a baby to save her marriage to Kevin; Kelly miscarriege her baby and asked Paul for help at any ost. Kelly was desparate to get a baby. Babe couldn't handle telling Bianca the truth and ran away. She talked to a pastor; she wanted a sign from God. She didn't know where she was going; the sign was knocked down. She landed in Llandview where her own baby was living with Kevin!

Last week, Kevin and Kelly went to court for the sole custody of Ace. Tico helped Kevin with the court case; Kevin won Ace. Kelly was heartbroken. Any way, Babe saw Kevin with Ace at the restuarant. Kevin didn't know how to calm down the baby. Babe offered to take care of the baby. She felt an connection to Ace. She wondered if Kevin was ever out of town with the baby. Ace wasn't never out of town, except with Kelly in Boston. I think it was Boston. I forgot! At the end of OLTL, Paul showed up at the same restaurant and saw Kevin and Babe talking!

I taped OLTL and watched Days Of Our Lives. John and Bo tried to get through the forcefield. Bo ran into it and flew back few feets to the ground. Everyone was worried. Bo survived. At the end, Roman, Marlena, Abe, Jenn, Tony and the baby showed up at the forcefield. They was so happy to see each other. Bo wondered where his wife was; Hope and Patrick was looking for Jack, who was missing after a few weeks.

Mike called me this evening. I talked to an Clubkid, Kackle, online. He wasn't home when I call him on the way home; he was doing research at the library. He will come over to do a chapter tomorrow. Mike asked, "Is there something wrong?" I didn't say at all. Few minutes later, Mike called me again. He mentioned he knew there was something wrong; u know, my vioce. He knows me like a book. I admitted I was tired of doing nothing. Life wasn't that grand for me. Trust me. My life wasn't all that. He promised he will help me to get my book published. I truly felt like I was on the way to last goodbyes.

 

hi i love u

The Apprentice

Tonight's show was pretty good. Once again, Donald Trump splits them into groups - men versus women. I didn't care about their team names. Last year's was much better.  This time, Donald added a kewl twist - one of the opposite sex must be the TEAM LEADER for the other team this episode.

We may have another Omarosa on our hands! This one black chick, Stacie, went nutso in front of her team. Nobody was friendly with her. For crying out loud, most of them was eating lunch! Stacie wanted to know them a little better.

The mean white lady, Pamela,  talked very bad about this kid's bad haircut in front of Mattel people. The kids was testing the new toys the teams made. Pamela was out of line big time. If I was a team leader, I will fire you on the spot! Jesus, now the kid will be PICK ON, thanx to her. Also, I bet he will see a shrink later in his life.

Stacie and Pamela were in BAD taste on the first day on the job! Those two won't last. At the boardroom, Carolyn called Pamela on the insult! U go, Carolyn!

The women team won; they spent the evening with Donald and his girlfriend in his penthouse. The losing team - the guys - lost one of their guys; Donald fired him!

Don't forget.........The Apprentice will be on ONE HOUR LATER at 9:30 PM/8:30 PM on NBC Thursdays after Joey and the season premiere of Will & Grace.

Any Survivor fans........the new season starts next Thursday at 8 PM/7 PM on CBS.

Enough rants about The Apprentice! Till the next time!  LOL

 

 

Drug Baby

Drug Baby
By Kazz Falcon

Hello, I was the worst mother ever
My doctor told me to stop using drugs - NEVER!
Please! My baby would be just fine
The drugs wouldn’t effect the baby in anyway
He warned me that the baby would be in grave danger - NO WAY!
Besides, I could stop anytime
He mentioned it ought to be a crime
Yeah, right!
He figured I wasn’t that bright
I just didn’t care
He tired his best to give me a scare
I cried out loud, I went into labor
It went over a day
I wasn’t that gay
The birth hurts like hell
I gave birth to a baby boy
Something was immediately wrong
Anything but that I feared
Nothing was further from the truth
I was ashamed of myself
I didn’t see my baby soon after the birth
I felt so much guilt in my life
I couldn’t believe it
The guilt was so strong
I never went to see the drug baby